Days like today are kind of rough. I got up for a hair appointment and when I came home, I decided to make pancakes for me and my dad. Who doesn't like pancakes?! Well, as much as I like them, I definitely don't like how they like to stick to my thighs. I don't like how addictive they are! But it's not just the pancakes. Today I was addicted to snacking. It doesn't help that we have three different kinds of ice cream in the freezer, snacks left out on the kitchen table, dip in the fridge... and as if that wasn't enough, it's 2am and I still haven't had a work out for today! I'm writing in this blog instead. And it's been a while since I've updated in here, so that is really saying something. Oh, no.
So yeah. Days like today are rough. Sometimes it's rough living here. My brother is over weight and and I don't want to make him sound bad because he is truly a great person, but he is a stereotypical overweight person, and a picky eater to boot. I worry about him. He gives a new definition to big and tall at 6'2" and 350+ pounds. Long John Silvers had a deal today where participating restaurants were giving out free food, and that is all he's been talking about. I enjoy a meal out as much as the next person, I'm human. But ugh. Quit talking about it. In addition to him going on and on about Long John's, he also brought up ordering pizza, compared two different pizza parlors, mentioned how long it's been since we got a pizza... ugh. I am sick of hearing about food! The last two years, one thing I've learned that while food is something you can enjoy, it's mainly for fuel. I've enjoyed learning new recipes to make food delicious and also extremely healthy. I love playing around with spices to make my favorite dishes that I don't feel guilty eating. Unfortunately, no one here really seems to understand that, or at least today I feel like they don't understand, and that is frustrating. It would be nice to be able to sit and eat whatever I want; not measure out 1/8 cup of salad dressing for my salad, or weigh my porkchop before I eat it, or take a handful chips and measure it out, but I can't do that. I can't do it if I want to maintain a healthy lifestyle. The hardest part in my journey has been maintaining a healthy lifestyle in a home where I'm surrounded by awful choices, and little support. Even something as small as, "Please put the chips in the cabinet so I don't see them." seems like a big chore.
I'm not sure what works for me. Some days I can do it fine, but then days like today are the difficult ones. A lot of it most likely has to do with my schedule being off kilter thanks to the hair appointment, and my workout schedule being off since it's the weekend (during the week I have a window of when I can workout without bothering anyone; but on the weekend I can work out whenever) but ugh. Today has been rough.
Most of the times I will admit that I have found this journey to be fairly easy and very rewarding, but then every once in a while a bad day creeps. Please excuse this rant. I'm only human. We are all only human.
Have a good day!
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